This is your last chance. After this there is no turning back . . .
“Unfortunately, no one can be told what Maya is —
you have to see it for yourself.
This is your last chance.
After this there is no turning back.
Take the blue pill — the story ends — you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill — you stay in wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.
Remember, all I’m offering is the truth,
Morpheus speaking to Neo in the movie, The Matrix
Many spiritual seekers I have met have expressed resentment, even anger, towards the spiritual path and the teachers/Masters that have brought them to it. They feel cheated, some of them feel tricked. They feel as if they were promised the world in order to lead them to engage in spiritual exercises only to end up losing everything that was formerly dear to them in life. They found themselves a sadhu, a seeker, with nothing left from the conventional world and yet, not feeling like they have gained anything in the spiritual life. They are filled with angst and if they have really tried hard in their exercises maybe they are able to laugh about it. Sometimes they are able to laugh at the impossibility of the predicament that the spiritual life has put them in. If they are lucky. Otherwise they may remain choked with bitterness.
Morpheus, like all gurus, sees this in advance. Whether we remember it or not, all authentic masters only promise the truth.
Maya. . . .
“Do you want to know WHAT IT IS?” That’s the only promise. The guru knows the price is high. The guru knows we must invoke an almost superhuman effort/strength in our spiritual practice and that we must undergo tremendous hardship, as the scenes that follow the above conversation in the movie THE MATRIX depict very well, in order to realize the truth. And the guru knows that once we truly begin the journey towards truth there is no turning back. We can’t go back to our old life, to our old dreams, to the old lies we told ourselves to keep us distracted from the deep sense we had that there is something fundamentally wrong with all of that.
Something compelled us to take the red pill. Which brings us back to the question of karma & fate? Is it possible that at some point in a soul’s journey its number comes up and it is compelled to begin the search for truth? How much free will is really involved?
Certain spiritual seekers drown in that bitterness that they feel for thinking that they have been tricked into the spiritual path. They may never recover from that feeling in this lifetime. Others can begin to laugh, to begin to let go of that natural heaviness of the mind, of the ego. What is the difference between these two? Has one done more meditation and yoga? Has one ate better foods? Does one have a stronger guru? Does one have more of God’s grace? Who is to say? Can these types of questions be answered?
If it is just a matter of cause and effect (karma) and not free will, maybe it is all luck? Or maybe it is all God’s grace and we were born to either get stuck under some bridge on the road to the truth or we were born to decide to take a different road at the very last instance and so are able to keep making progress?